Feelings

Have I mentioned that I am feeling allot?

Have I mentioned that my relationship with Jaz is troubled?

The problem with problems is that nobody wants to look at them. I have been chided many times for writing things that were to honest, I don't want to hurt anybody. One of the main purposes of this blog was to express myself unabashedly. Maybe if I write what I want to write, about how Jaz has hurt me and I have hurt her, it is still a form of running from fully expressing myself?

The positive side of the story is that I am communicating with my family, particularly Mom more then ever before.

How do I break the cycle? It started before I was born.