Se la vi.

Today was a awesome!
It's Jaz's birthday so as a present, God sent us two awesome friends to laugh and play with!
Mike and Jeremy drove from Oklahoma City to Boulder to deliver a car to Mike's sister. We met as we were hitching up to Boulder Falls. When we arrived they hopped out of the car and with exuberance declared that they would love to see the falls. After a short hike we found ourselves driving up to Eldora with them for some hot chocolate. "My treat" Mike said. I did not want to except to much but he insisted. While we were in Ned we had to stop by the gem and crystal shop! It is one of the most exquisite shops I have ever been to. A few of the pieces reminded me of an incredible wood shop I had been to in Laos. Carvings out of stone that were so perfect they must have been present in the stone before it was cut. We played and joked for hours up in Ned before coming back down for lunch. We picked up Mike's sister Michelle who is a freshman at CU and headed off to Aztec Sol. Oh my god. Great food, and we took home enough for 3 more meals. Next, we stopped by my favorite tea shop. Ku Cha. We drank tea with timelessness and humor. Have you ever had milk oolong? It is now my faviorate tea. Incredible! We tasted a large handful of other fantastic teas before calling it a night.
Unfortunately, Jaz is a little sick so although she could appreciate the day she could not be as active as she might have liked and as the day wore on she wore out.
Se la vi.

Feelings

Have I mentioned that I am feeling allot?

Have I mentioned that my relationship with Jaz is troubled?

The problem with problems is that nobody wants to look at them. I have been chided many times for writing things that were to honest, I don't want to hurt anybody. One of the main purposes of this blog was to express myself unabashedly. Maybe if I write what I want to write, about how Jaz has hurt me and I have hurt her, it is still a form of running from fully expressing myself?

The positive side of the story is that I am communicating with my family, particularly Mom more then ever before.

How do I break the cycle? It started before I was born.